March 16, 2015 by positivelypeachie
Let me start off by saying I can count the number of movies that actually made tears come out of my eyes on one hand. I’m just not a crier. I, absolutely, will feel terrible or have a lump in my throat and sometimes my eyes well up – but to actually draw tears from me it has to be something really sad.
I think Pearl Harbour, Titanic and probably Warhorse are the only movies that made me actually cry. Nothing has ever made me sob – except one movie: The Fault In Our Stars (discovered Saturday night).
I’ve read the book, so I know what’s going to happen, and yet somehow the movie had me completely sobbing. Not just crying, but ugly cry sobbing. My heart felt like it was being ripped in two. Ugh, so, so sad.
Maybe it’s because part of it is kind of close to home. On Tuesday, my nephews swim instructor (and his school teachers daughter) was diagnosed with Osteosarcoma. Now, I don’t know Emma well, but I was and am so very sad to hear this news. My nephew, being a friend of Emma’s and knowing her for as long as he has, was upset. My sister believes in honesty, so she explained it to him in the most age appropriate way. The next day when I took him to swim class he had lots of facts he was telling me and questions. I get the feeling he was bouncing it off of me to see how I reacted, so he could gauge how serious it is. I didn’t bring it up, but as soon as he got into the car he started talking about it.
“Emma has cancer. Lots of people die from cancer. She is going to get medicine to help her but it will make her feel yucky. Mommy said that sometimes even babies get cancer.”
Nowhere in his musings did he connect that Emma may die from cancer…and I am thankful for that. It’s a tough enough topic to handle at 6, I didn’t want him to connect those two because I don’t know if he is ready to process something like that yet. I am just hoping and praying that they can treat it, and she survives. She is a lovely girl and has a lot to offer the world…but then, don’t they all?