May 11, 2015 by positivelypeachie
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I used to love pregnancy announcements – they filled me with hope. I was genuinely happy, and only rarely felt any kind of jealousy or sadness. However, somewhere along the way in the last year or so, that has ceased to be the situation.
While I am still happy for the person and would never begrudge them this experience, their pregnancy, or anything else – it stings a bit more and I am definitely feeling what I am guessing is jealousy. Or perhaps not jealousy but a why not me too? feeling.
So Mother’s Day, which is not an awful day for me but is harder than the average day, I was on guard – fully expecting some announcements to come but as the day wore on, I was grateful that they didn’t. Then, around 9:30 PM my hubby was talking to his step-mom, and in that moment when my guard was most down, the announcement came. Our
Godzilla-in-law sister-in-law who is a very difficult person for pretty much everyone, is expecting and due in November. Their second child. She has never recovered from her first daughter’s birth, and the postpartum depression she suffered afterwards – so I have no idea what to expect. It stung though.
When (please let it be when, not if!) I have an announcement to make – please remind me not to share on any holidays – they’re painful enough for so many of us that I don’t need to add any salt to any wounds as well.